This all started back in August of 2019, I’d been with Kev for 3 and half years and we was just about to take some time off work together to spent some quality time. We’d both been busy working and we’d got a puppy 6 months earlier and I was really looking forward to it. My world and my life was practically perfect, we had everything or so I thought. The Saturday of August the 4th we’d taken my mum out for dinner and was sat watching tv. We’d had a little row that day about Bella (our puppy) and that night he turned to me held my hand, smiled and said do you think something is missing … this hit my like a brick as I thought I was living the perfect life and looking forward to spending time with the love of my life, I actually thought we’d talk about it and sort it out as we were solid. Forward to the following Tuesday and I was moving to my mums my world totally shattered. I did the usual crying, begging and messaging all over that weekend but he was sorry he just felt something was missing. I begged him to swear to me there was nobody else and he did so I settled at my mums hoping we’d sort things out.
The first week apart
During this week at my mum I begged, I didn’t eat, didn’t sleep, cried the whole time believing there was nobody else and we’d work things out. We spoke everyday, he got mad cos he’d sit on WhatsApp not messaging me etc but said he was reading through our messages trying to get into his head what was missing and I wanted to know why he wouldn’t talk to me (I believed all this as out life was perfect). I saw him once and it was awkward I felt he was holding something back from me. I started looking at other places to live as I was 34 and didn’t want to live with my mother, he never questioned this and never said no .. this is when I got suspicious…
Caught in the act
During the 2nd week of our time off I went to the house and Kev wasn’t in so I waiting for him, He pulled up on our front I don’t know why I looked out the window and out came his phone and smile on his face a look I recognised, with that I went outside he didn’t see me and I caught him messaging HER! It was at this moment my world shattered .. we had a massive row he wouldn’t tell me who she was but said they’d only been talking for a few days and it was nothing but still I had taken 1 short week for him to start talking to somebody else I grew even more suspicious. I then went back to work and tried to forget about it, I was so ill I couldn’t function all just kept asking myself why what had I done that was so wrong for him to move on so quickly .. I was devastated my world had ended and I just couldn’t think straight at all. I’ll never forget the day I found out who SHE was , turns out she worked with him (he was her manager) she was a lot younger than me and in my head a lot more prettier , I instantly hated her for what she’d done automatic reaction to blame the “other woman” the hate grew even more inside me ..
Infidelity 